You're not the first ones to say so, in recent months. That I've done enough, that I shouldn't need to give more than I have.
[Maxima smiles at them ruefully, the bitterness easing away.]
The truth is, I do want to see my home get better. Even though it will take the rest of my life, even though I'll spend my life holding people's hands as they learn to walk while I've been running for years... I want to be able to look back and say that everything we did was worth it. That it meant something. That the brighter future we always dreamed of was possible, and have the pride of proving it.
[He looks around the office again, at the slow accumulation of files and books and knickknacks on the shelves. His gaze lingers just a little too long on the set of plushies Harumasa gave him for Christmas, and he refocuses before that can distract him too much.]
...But...this world is so much kinder. I can be at home here, I can lead a comfortable life, surrounded by good people who care for me and for one another. ...I think anyone would be tempted to stay.
It's because it's true. Committing oneself to a cause is noble, but it's extremely difficult too. I think anyone should have the chance to step away, should they find something else precious in their lives. Even someone like me is always trying to have a balance between being Shroud the knight, and Jun the human with a life far away from all that.
[It's not always an easy thing to balance out, but... Jun cherishes getting the chance to be a person rather than only a knight]
Ultimately, the choice is up to yours. I'll respect whatever you chose... so long as it's the choice you truly want.
[He shrugs]
Though, it's not like it's a choice that needs to be made today. It's not like we have a reliable way to travel to other worlds.
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[Maxima smiles at them ruefully, the bitterness easing away.]
The truth is, I do want to see my home get better. Even though it will take the rest of my life, even though I'll spend my life holding people's hands as they learn to walk while I've been running for years... I want to be able to look back and say that everything we did was worth it. That it meant something. That the brighter future we always dreamed of was possible, and have the pride of proving it.
[He looks around the office again, at the slow accumulation of files and books and knickknacks on the shelves. His gaze lingers just a little too long on the set of plushies Harumasa gave him for Christmas, and he refocuses before that can distract him too much.]
...But...this world is so much kinder. I can be at home here, I can lead a comfortable life, surrounded by good people who care for me and for one another. ...I think anyone would be tempted to stay.
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[It's not always an easy thing to balance out, but... Jun cherishes getting the chance to be a person rather than only a knight]
Ultimately, the choice is up to yours. I'll respect whatever you chose... so long as it's the choice you truly want.
[He shrugs]
Though, it's not like it's a choice that needs to be made today. It's not like we have a reliable way to travel to other worlds.